The past few weeks have been a whirlwind - the good kind, yet, also the kind that leaves me exhausted and stressed out at the end of the day.
When I began working through IGNITE I was pumped up and excited! I still am - however - I must admit that I've wanted to give up a few times by now. It's my resistance and self-doubt that leads me to want to give up! I feel like I know myself pretty well, but this program has really helped me dive into identifying some core limiting beliefs that I MUST work through to resolve if I am ever going to make my creative purpose a reality!
The tools within IGNITE have helped me gain insight on the filmmaking process as a whole. I've interviewed some experts in the field, as well as people that are in my intended audience for the screenplay I am developing.
Talking to people is the scariest part of this process. It's only scary because I worry about judgement from others. Once I actually have someone on the other side of the phone or a zoom call, all of it goes away and I'm completely present with them. I had the opportunity to learn a bit more from the Hispanic women in my network, their background, and some of their struggles around mental health and their relationships with their family members. It has helped me realize that this screenplay needs to happen - and that there are people out there waiting for the story that I wish to tell.
I am definitely at the edge of my comfort zone and resisting so hard to stay within my boundaries. Deep down I know I need to continue to reach further out and expand that boundary - it's the only way that I am going to be able to make this project a reality.